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[26 Jul 2006|01:11pm] |
summer is going by so damn slow. I just wish i could move back to MSU right now. But what can ya do. My birthday was awesome I had a slumber party and we just chilled watched movies, ate tons of junk food and just had a grand ole time. I wanted to say thanks to everyone for my birthday wishes and for all of you who came to me stellar party.
CountDowns for the summer:
6 days until work trip to cedar point
29 some odd days until move ins to MSU
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[24 Jul 2006|02:00am] |
hey everyone. sorry i haven't posted in FOREVER. but wanted to let everyone know that i am crazy busy working. i really feel like i have no time for friends. and the select few that i do get to see and hangout with are pretty lucky. anyways, its my birthday and i am tired and a bit aggrivated. but hopefully it will pass soon. alrighty, bye
amanda
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[04 May 2006|09:24pm] |
I'm the girl you can take absolutely anywhere and I will (or at least try to) have fun because it means I am spending time with you...
I'm the girl who is incredibly picky, but when I find someone I like I want to spend the whole night curled up in their arms...
I'm the girl who never forgets the all sweet little things you do for me...
I'm the girl who never gives up hope even when I tell others I have...
I'm the girl who once I let you into my heart, there's always a place there with your name on it. And even if we spend time apart, I'm the girl who never forgets you.
I'm the girl who loves to end a hug with a kiss...
I'm the girl who you can talk to you about anything...
I'm the girl who laughs at your jokes...
I'm the girl who will have many inside jokes with you and will remember each one...
I'm the girl who will listen to you talk...
I'm the girl who really does want to be friends after a break up...
I'm the girl who loves it when you hug me for no apparent reason...
I'm the girl who loves it when you hug me from behind or kiss me on the forehead..
I'm the girl who loves you for you, and doesn't care what other people say about us...
I'm the girl who loves it when you introduce me to your friends as your girlfriend...
I'm the girl who loves the feeling when you take me by the hand without saying a word...
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[29 Apr 2006|09:21pm] |
Okay so I really want to go to Italy for spring of 07. and the only way is to be a junior. so i am dedicating my summer to like 18 credits. and this is what my schedule from may until december will look like:
U of M Flint
Spring '06
Astronomy M/T/W/Th 1:30-2:45
Communication 200 - online and i am waitlisted
Economics 201- Th 530-8pm
Summer '06
Economics 202 M/W 1:30-4
History 113 Th 1:30-4
Philosophy 168 online
Fall '06
ISS 215 M/W 12:40-2:30
Communications 225 M/W 10:20-11:40
CSE 101 TUE/THURS 3-4:50
ENG 205 TUE/ THUR 10:20-11:40
KINESIOLOGY 103U (STEP AREOBICS) M/W 4:10-5
then SPRING 2007 will hopefully be in italy if i get accepted into the program. and i am excited b/c if i go i will be persuing some of my dreams. and my best friend sam will be there. man i cant wait.
well must go
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[26 Apr 2006|09:30am] |
So this is how this goes:
- Comment on this entry and get a letter.
- Write 10 words beginning with that letter, including an explanation of what the word means to you and why.
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so kristen gave me B go me. I am bord so this shall be fun
1. Boys- gotta love themhem. especially gay boys. man do i love them. and how everywhere I turn I meet a new one
2.Books- I love reading and i think its fun just to pick a random book and read it. like just going to the bookstore picking a book that yot have no idea what its about. its a great way to discover new books
3. Blonde- I am seriously the biggest blonde in the world. and fricken hair dye doesnt fix it. gah. and i hate being so dumb.
4.Bags- I love shopping and finding a "bag" or handbag is so much fun. i have like a gazillion purses or "bags" and i like adding to my collection
5.blanket- like a kid i have my "blankie" that i sleep with everynight. its sorta hard to break this old habit but atleast its not like smoking
6.burgers- for 4 years going i am still flipping burgers at mcdonalds and just want to get out of there and find something more stable
7.brand- i like shopping for name brand clothing and shoes. i may sound ridiculous but i hate buying walmart or k-mart clothes. but an occasional thing from here isnt too bad
8.bloomin' onion- i love outback steak house and this yummy appetizer. yummmy goodness
9.batting cage- when i was in like 10th grade the summer before i went to a batting cage and broke my thumb
10. blisters- man how i hate sandel season and having to break your feet into cute looking shoes. b/c my feet are killing me.
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man you never realize how wonderful life is until you take a step back and realize how much you have taken life for granted. i figured that when i asked god for my best friend the one you could share everything with and laugh with. i thought i knew who he had chosen. but i now realized that i was wrong and my best friend has been by myside for along time and i never knew it. i still question everything with religion and whether there's a god or not but i'm starting to realize someone is out there. someone of a higher being. whether it is god or something else i still have yet to learn.
good night people. sweet dreams.
amanda
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| it's almost over |
[18 Apr 2006|11:43am] |
YEAH schools almost over for the summer!. I am so excited b/c I am so stressed with homework and just need time to relax. I am going to miss my new friends I have made this year.Thanks guys you all have helped me out so much this year. I love just being able to talk to you. I am so not used to being able to open up to so many people.
chelsea's I am going to miss our long talks until 3am. Oh well we have the internet for next year and this time when we IM each other we wot be in the same room. LOL
Kimely- your only going to be 2.5 hrs away so we will be able to do something don't worry. just if I'm not crazy busy working. lol but hunny we are going to have so much fun next year ;)
adrienne- man you are so funny. you bring the child back out in me. i really needed it after all the stress from home :) we so need to have a disney night or something lol
courtney- man i love your greetings in the hall ways
jess- i will so miss you over the summe and yes i will write. but you will have so much fun once again. rip it up out there hun
and for everyone else i love you and will miss you. keep in touch over the summer guys ;)
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[16 Apr 2006|07:19pm] |
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I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears and
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
You find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between and
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on
And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everone knows I'm in
Over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm over my
Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
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[10 Apr 2006|12:33pm] |
Go to Wikipedia. In the Search box, type your birth month and day (but not year). List three events that happened on your birthday. List two important birthdays and one interesting death. Post this in your journal.
3 Events
1969 - Apollo program: Apollo 11 splashes down safely in the Pacific Ocean.
2005 - Lance Armstrong wins his seventh Tour de France.
1974 - Watergate Scandal: The United States Supreme Court unanimously rule that President Richard Nixon did not have the authority to withhold subpoenaed White House tapes and they order him to surrender the tapes to the Watergate special prosecutor.
2 birthdays
1897 - Amelia Earhart, American aviator (disappeared 1937
1969 - Jennifer Lopez, American actress and singer
1 death
1739 - Benedetto Marcello, Italian composer (b. 1686)
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[09 Apr 2006|07:21pm] |
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HOMIES FORVER
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
HOMIEZ: Helps themselves and are the reason why you have no food.
FRIENDS: Calls your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
HOMIEZ: Calls your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail.
HOMIEZ: Would be sitting next to you sayin
"We fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"
FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
HOMIEZ: Wont tell everyone else you cried...just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.
FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
HOMIEZ: Loses your shit and tells you, "My bad...here's a tissue."
FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
HOMIEZ: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story...
FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
HOMIEZ: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.
FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
HOMIEZ: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"
FRIENDS: Are only through highschool.
HOMIEZ: Are for life.
FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you've had enough.
HOMIEZ: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."
FRIENDS: Would ignore this letter
HOMIEZ: Will repost this shittttt!
if u r a true homie then repost this 2 the person who sent it 2 u n 10 other true homiez n if u get this back then that means that u r a true homie...!!!
COMMENT IF THIS IS TRUE!
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[08 Apr 2006|04:20pm] |
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Crime. Confusion. Compassion. They're all just states of mind.
The worst part is knowing that there is goodness in people. Mostly it stays deep down and buried. Maybe we don't have God because we're scared of the bad stuff. Maybe we're really scared of the good stuff. Because if there's no God, well, that means it's inside of us and we could be good all the time if we wanted. So when we do bad things, it'd be because we want to or because we have to. Or maybe we just need the bad stuff to remind us what the good stuff is in the first place.
And that's when I figured out that tears couldn't make somebody who was dead alive again. There's another thing to learn about tears, they can't make somebody who doesn't love you any more love you again. It's the same with prayers. I wonder how much of their lives people waste crying and praying to God. If you ask me, the devil makes more sense than God does. I can at least see why people would want him around. It's good to have somebody to blame for the bad stuff they do. Maybe God's there because people get scared of all the bad stuff they do. They figure that God and the Devil are always playing this game of tug-of-war game with them. And they never know which side they're gonna wind up on. I guess that tug-of-war idea explains how sometimes, even when people try to do something good, it still turns out bad.
Maybe it makes sense now. Maybe somewhere in all of this there's a reason. Maybe somewhere in all of this there's a why. Maybe somewhere there's that thing that lets you tie it all up with a neat bow and bury it in the backyard. But nothing, not getting angry, not prayers, and not tears, nothing can make something that happened unhappen.
You want a why. Well, maybe there isn't one. Maybe... Maybe this is just something that happened.
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[04 Apr 2006|12:34pm] |
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Things seem to be getting better between my friends and I but i dont really know. Still ultimatley stressed out from school and everything else. I really am sick of all this drama and bullshit b/c it causes so many more problems than needed. I always thought that once you left highschool all that drama just stopped. But i was wrong. I don't fucking seen why people insist on lying to my. To tell you I HATE LIARS. I cant consider someone my friend who lies to me. It's one thing that bothers me the most. because you cant base a friendship off lies.
Aimee called last night and we talked for about an hour and it was actually pretty nice. I learned alot about what the fuck has been going on the past few days, and even weeks. I didn't mean in the last entry that you aren't really admitting your mistakes but i was trying to say you've made mistakes to and i know i have and i just was hoping you would get over it because we have grown so far apart. We were once inseperable wherever aimee was amanda was or whereever amanda was aimee was. Remember that night aimee that those dumbass bartenders came to your house and we had to go pick up carrie over in the trailor park b/c she was drunk? DO you remember what she said to me " Amanda I'm so glad your here, your one of Aimee's best friends and I can always count on you, because your so nice. I know I could call you for anything. I'm glad you came with Aimee to come get me" We are going on nine months of a friendship and for the first like 6 months I felt so close to your family. It was actually nice being able to talk to your mom about anything b/c my mom is always traveling. I felt so comfotable calling your house because your mom and I would have little converstations if you were not home and had to run an arrand. Aimee I don't know if you'll ever read this but I hope you do I just hope that I can still be your best friend when this is all done with. As you've seen the last few times we have hungout I am a slightly different that I used to be. I am back to my normal giddy self which I like.
well enough with me running on and on I have a paper to write and cad to build.
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[03 Apr 2006|05:29pm] |
Super stressed out from school, work, and friends.
Just hoping that we can get over all this bullshit and go back to the way things were. I just feel that I am being pushed away so far. When this is all done and overwith I'll be fine no matter the outcome. it's you who has to be the one to save this friendship I've tried so hard and I don't want to give up, but it's your turn if you want it and I hope you do. Everyone makes mistakes and I'm not the only one who has you have to, but I am willing to over come them if your willing to overcome my mistakes. I'll be waiting for that phone call the day you decide to save this friendship.
Aimee I know you'll never read this, but I just hope that someday you realize how good of a friend I was to you and how much I have been hurt the opast few weeks. yes i admitt i made a mistake I just hope you admitt yours too. I am sorry. but like we always said we will be best friends forever ever. I love you aimee.
Amanda
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1. Initials:
AMN
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
Shana B, and JLO
3. Favorite fruit(s)?
tomatoes,bananas,oranges, I love all fruits
4. For or against same sex marriage?
nope, I think that if two people love each other than its okay
5. Are you allergic to anything?
yes, cats, dust, pollen, ragweed, and much more
6. Are you bisexual?
nope, i am straight
7. Have you ever slept in someone elses clothes?
my cousins
8. How many U.S states have you been to?
between 8 and 10
9. How many of the U.S states have you lived in?
1
10. Have you ever lived outside the U.S?
Nope
11. Name something physical you like about yourself?
eyes and my smile
12. Something non-physical you like about yourself.
I am very shy at first but tend to be outgoing when i feel comfortable around people
13. do you have any pets?
2 dogs. abby and taz
15. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go?
austrailia
16. Have you ever had someone of the opposite sex sleep over?
not my house, but i have stayed at someones house with guys as well
17. Are you bipolar?
nope, but people seem to think that I am nowadays.
18. What dream car do you want your husband/wife to drive?
i cant think of anything at the moment. but something hot and expensive
20. Where would you want to go on a date?
either and amusement park, or like on the movie ten things i hate about you when they go to that paint thing where they throw ballons filled with paint at each other.anything thats fun but i would probably never date a guy who took me to the movies on a first date.
21. Would you date the person who posted this before you?
nope
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
yes, tristan and it was so hott. damn he's gay.
23. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
nope, but i need to do that
24. Do you like president Bush?
.........
25. Have you ever bungee jumped?
Nope, but if anyone wants to go count me in
26. Have you ever been white water rafting??
same as # 25
27. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you?
when i was at a club and the other day at mcdonalds a guy with only 4.5 teeth and drunk as hell hit on me
30. Are you racist?
aww hells no
31. What song are you listening to right now?
I'm in love with a stripper
32. What's your favorite song at the moment?
i want you to want me. letters of cleo
35. Where was the last place you went besides your house?
Berkey hall for WRA 140. thats a good class i advise you to take it
36. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
not that i can recall
37. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
yes i have
39. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
looks (unfortunate flaw of everyone), and personality
40. What's your favorite body part on the opposite sex?
eyes and smile
41. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
mocha frap.
44. Say something totally random about yourself.
my best friend is Aimee Haddock
45. Do you have an iPod?
iPod mini
46. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
hmm ... nope
49. Do you have dimples?
yep ;)
49. Are you comfortable with your height?
its okay although my friends need to grow. lol
50. Do you like someone right now?
nope
51. How tall are you?
5'9"
52. Do you speak any other language other than english?
a little spanish
55. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
yes plety of times.
56. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?
yes, this summer by good friend samantha passed away
57. Do you watch MTV?
once in a while
58. What's something that really annoys you.
peole who lie
59. What are some things you really like?
rent, musicals, movies, music, clarinets, marching band,reading, writing, singing, A I, House, grey's anatomy, dancing in the rain, halloween, friends, family, money, shopping, road trips
63. Do you know how to pump gas?
yep
64. Do you drive?
yes i do
65. What's the latest you have ever stayed out?
430 am
66. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
some day
67. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
nope
68. Have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do?
yes i have. i love doing dares, they are so daring
69. What's your favorite state to live in?
Michigan, but i could possibly be moving to texas her in a year or less.
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[20 Feb 2006|01:46pm] |
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Holy cow I leave for spring break in like 11 days. I am so fricken excited. I have class on thursday the 2nd and am leaving that night at midnight. My friends and I are road tripping to florida. Fun in the sun baby.
Anways, yesterday I was up at my work when these 2 drunk guys were like seriosuly in my sister, casey, carries and mine faces. I was getting drunk just off there breath. It was so gross and not to forget so scary. they kept shouting shit to me and i just wanted to leave. yea that was my interesting adventure with my sister and casey.
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[15 Feb 2006|07:35pm] |
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Okay so I have been updating alot lately. I am back to normal I guess. LOL. Well I have just been chilling it up in East Lansing and been a little bord lately. I am really trying to fix all of the friendships I have broken and It hurts to know that I have done so. So I hope those who feel that I have pushed them away forgive me :)
Well off to do nothing. TTYL
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I am starting to realize that l am pushing people away from me. and that is not my intention. I just needed time to figure out what the hell was going on inside my head and I still havn't figured it all out. So I am sorry to those who feel that I don't want to be your friend in fact I do. Just realize that I am going through a rough time and I have way too much time to think about stuff and it's causing me to overthink situations. For now I am working on being a better friend it will just take some time. AMANDA
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[08 Feb 2006|02:15pm] |
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Who fucking knows anymore. I seriously can't stand this bullshit. Nobody cares about what I think or how I feel. I might as well just sit back and let life go on with out me giving my input.
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[07 Feb 2006|06:19pm] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAMANTHA DOBSON.
RIP PEACE HON WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!!!!!!!
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